I Give Up, Just Leave Me Alone

Mathew 14:13 “When Jesus heard about John, He left there privately in a boat and went to a secluded place.But when the crowds heard of this they followed on foot from the cities.” Mathew 14:14 “When He went ashore, He saw a large crowd,and felt (profound) compassion for them and healed their sick.”

I wonder what Jesus was saying to God on that boat. He was clearly upset about the death of John. He wanted to be alone, just Him and His father (God). I think that he would have been crying out to God, complaining about the people of this world. Complaining about the one’s who had just murdered His cousin John, who was someone who He loved. I think He may have been saying, I change my mind, I don’t want to do this mission anymore. I am DONE with helping and teaching them. I just want to be left alone, and go back home. But by the time He got back to the shore, He was refreshed and ready to carry on. His heart was strengthen and He had compassion for the people once again. He was ready for the mission!!

Have you ever been so upset by something in the world, seeing an injustice that hurts you? Hurt by the very people you are trying to help? Have you ever just raised up you hands and said that’s it I’m done? Have you ever just wanted to hop on a boat or plane, or maybe run to a drink or a drug, anything to just escape the feelings and the people? I have felt this way many times and in my life. For me, my way of escape in the past, was to self isolate and think negatively about myself and the world. I would become depressed, my body reacts to depression by causing my digestive disease to act up. Literally, my digestive issues can be my the cause of my death. But I have been learning to be more like Jesus. More like how I pictured Him on the boat.

I think when we are ready to give up, to run to our poor coping mechanisms, that instead we should all try to react like I believe Jesus did. By going and spending some time crying out to God, giving Him all of our complaints. Waiting for him to comfort us and renew our mind. Asking for God to allow our eyes to see people (including those who have hurt us) as He sees them. Then maybe we can have “profound compassion” for them and allow God to use us to perform miracles that bring the glory to Him. Just like Jesus healed the sick, we might be able to help heal people.

#beencouraged #dealingwithburnout #livingablessedlife

Published by Angelina Taylor

Hi, and welcome, I am Angelina Taylor and the creator of this blog . I am a perfectly imperfect women, wife, mother of 2 young adults and 1 cat and a lover of Jesus. I moved from suburbia to rural Norfolk County Ontario, which came with many treasures and obstacles. My life has had many trials right from my birth, abuse, abandonment, health and the list continues, as I am sure does yours. This is where I share how finding Jesus has healed me and helped to gain confidence to use some talents I never knew I had. My home is a blessing that is filled with love, good food, and diy projects that I will share with you. My desire is that this blog helps you to live the blessed life that you desire.

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